It´s amazing that amount of seemingly pointless lost hours that go into the making of any human enterprise. I look at “Lunatic Lullabies”, and see the kaleidoscope of different histories and experiences which all mesh, collide and somehow eventually blend to form its whole.
If anything, the album is just a reflection of how completely out of control one is of one´s life - no matter how much will goes into attempting to impose some type of pattern upon it. The songs came out of the poetry of chance.
Shards of light competing, conflicting, dancing and wrestling with their counterparts in the dark. Memories of its creation swell & ebb - all the random interactions and reactions to things that make a life.
The light coming in through the window on the tour bus on the way into Budapest writing “Through My Weakness”. Howling over a kick drum in a room next to the Tacheles writing “Threads”, a song that just would not die, no matter how many deaths it had to endure.
“See How the Darkness Grows” getting stuck on lock on my mp3 player, as if willing itself into existence by making itself un-delete-able.
Writing “Tell Me” the first time I ever sat down at a piano and wondered if I howled hard enough if I could convince it that I could actually play it.
Writing “Celebrate” looking for a new aesthetic, a new code, a new language for my music.
“Bye Bye the Elbe” realizing that the journey was beginning again and wondering how many rebirths a man can endure.
Releasing an album is exhaling a long breath that you´ve held in for too long. It is a form of liberation, because until it is released it dominates you, defines you, never lets you be free. Are you living up to it? Have you done everything you can? What have you not thought of that you wish you had thought of?And so on.
Anyway - good luck on your journey now “Lunatic Lullabies” - I hope you find your way home into the hearts of whoever chooses to listen. I guess there are many miles yet to go before you sleep……
Photo: Sittig Fahr-Becker
Album Story #3 Featuring: Manors
Beevering away at the “album story” tracks. Always quite a surreal experience - reinterpreting the songs before anyone has even heard the originals. I have a propensity for back to frontness, I was even born the wrong way round. And the “OSOS” ´s are rolling too, and it has been a wonderful project to be involved in. Having said that, someone did tell me I was “fucking mad” the other day in that we are promoting the album with 5 original new songs that have been written, recorded, released all in the month before the album is released. However, I like to think that the “daftness” of the process makes sense in the way that it correlates with a world that stubbornly refuses to makes sense. In any case, despite the fact that promotion is of course necessary, the fact is is that I´d rather be making stuff - and as a result I am loving this album process because we seem to be making new stuff all the time…..and of course the biggest new thing, the album, is as of yet unreleased. Tomorrow night we play the first gig of the year. We have 2 new members and a ton of new songs. I´m looking forward to blooding them. I guess you have times when you just have to put it all on the line & let things be as they chose to be. I for one just believe in the power of music….For all the distorted maniacical ways mankind chooses to destroy everything around him, himself, his fellow people, it is necessary to keep doing random acts of love, generosity & free-spiritness that remind oneself of why the dam hell we are living - and that life, despite its propensity for “ogreness” (yes, its probably now a word) is indeed worthwhile. I for one am a believer. Not in something specific. Just in the fact that I chose to believe. That´s good enough for me.